gauze, ballast, by sodium light

gauze, ballast

by sodium light

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1.	the stillness of senses electrified 05:14	lyrics	buy track
autor ego audendae
2.	vertigo 04:33	lyrics	buy track
my day in the mechanical sun will come a tour itinerary for fragments of myself through a city made of blocks of colour and light - look from a different angle, it might disappear full of the houses of lovers we leave behind, evocations of spaces we can't return to soft places, gentle arms, firm support, exactly perfect oh vertigo, oh no oh vertigo, oh no ooh we make sleep wishes for each other: "delicate like the dance of northern lights over a dark sky. slow and churning and steady and soft." we touched all night, limb to limb and back to back limb to limb and back to back firm support, exactly perfect can't sleep can't sleep I'm sick each day a different emotion firm support, exactly perfect can't sleep can't sleep I'm sick each day a different emotion oh vertigo, oh no oh vertigo, oh no ooh back to back, back to back, back to back, back to back...
3.	ER 06:03	lyrics	buy track
a sweettasting floss made of air wound its way across my tongue and between my teeth, down my throat to where I breathe dissecting people as fast as possible but not fast enough your name, ordinary before your name, ordinary before mouth clamped shut, words escaping from every pore I'm screaming in a whisper under everything I do would you prefer to be hollow, or filled with lead? you never existed, neither did the rest of them should have answered yes when asked if I hallucinate your name, ordinary before your name, ordinary before worship the rope how does it feel in your hands? how does it move through the air? how does its change when it's bound in knots? there's less to move. it becomes sharper. more rigid, more certain. solid and swinging. tight and bound. teetering amongst nature. mothers and mother are looking out for me.
4.	not everything can be your stimmung, but you certainly are 03:50	lyrics	buy track
it screams "why not" at me, and for months now, I haven't been able to give it a good answer. why not? are we afraid of how our lives might change? we are each other's. not everything can be your stimmung, but you certainly are.
5.	left field therapy 02:55	lyrics	buy track
left field therapy nighttime dark. in it, we glow. time so short, radiance is always there. to find someone who thrives near a glowing sun. auditions are closed left field therapy house tips forwards. hold on for life. tipping inhabitants into the abyss below. what used to be behind becomes up. auditions are closed left field therapy ahhh auditions are closed ahhh left field therapy
6.	I brush up against the future so much 04:47	lyrics	buy track
my porcelain shell gets worn down every day; I thicken it back up as I sleep I'll use the light in my eyes to become your friend I brush up against the future so much I don't paint the town, I wear huge boots and run wherever I want, for miles I brush up against the future so much, so much, so much, so much... I have an altar at the vents, I give them flowers of gratitude nights filled up with feelings of the impossible made minute ahhh I brush up against the future so much
7.	deep fall 01:10		buy track
8.	february's window 05:34	lyrics	buy track
brickwork tan and green gobo'd shade idealized memories speeding my favourite park criss and crosses its imperfect symmetry olives I'm finding mirrors they cover a narrow strip of land if you share this bright moon with me awash on your face, head resting on my pillow you'll feel yourself heal a little I promise
9.	safe 02:46		buy track

credits

released June 8, 2018

tom andel - drums on tracks 3 and 8, mixing consultation
tom merklinger - clarinet on track 3
allison balcetis - saxophone on track 4
otto nuoranne - cello on tracks 3 and 5
nano uribe - bass on track 3

josh bookhalter - mixing on track 3
kelsey macmillan - album artwork

sodium light - everything else

thank you to tom andel and tom merklinger, also bart petrus, as well as scott smallwood for all your support.